I’m tired

Its Dec. 28th. Day four of the 12 days of Christmas. I feel as though I spent all my energy getting to Christmas, and now I don’t have very much to celebrate with. I struggled yet again against falling in to the consumerist trap of the holidays. Some days won, others didn’t. There is still something that felt real about it though. My mom and fiance were here this year which was a nice change from last year. An 8 year old’s excitement hit home, which was also nice. That helped to make sense of something, although I’m not sure what yet. I might get back to you on that, if I figure it out. I am at least somewhat proud of the fact that I went to kiva.org and read up on it, talked it over and gave microcredit/finance loans for Christmas, or rather gave my parents and siblings the opportunity to engage in lending microcredit/finance loans. Strange though, that I understand that Canada is a leader in this, and yet there doesn’t appear (or at least I haven’t found one) a canadian site like kiva. Please correct me if you know otherwise. Still something that somebody really needs in one part of the world is better than something that somebody doesn’t need in another part of the world. Or something like that. ….